Sometimes I take a short break from this race that is called life, take a deep breath and then I realize that I'm rushing to where? and all the things that I need or I want at some point just disappear, and all that remains is a blank page. And then the questions come in my mind like ravens to dead bodies 'do I really need these? do I really want this? are mine these feelings ? cz it lookes like I don't need them anymore.I feel empty and clear like a lake where nothing is growing, just water, pure and simple, with no substance or consciousness of itself. And then everything that were choices, desires and will, look like a struggle, looks like I'm pushing myself .. in order to become better, make more money, feel more alive, get more satisfactions, more happy moments, more good memories, discover the meaning of life and even be happy through love. It's like I'm watching myself from outside emptied of any emotions and wonder.. do I need these feelings? or do I need to forget them? can even this be called love?
OM
Saturday, May 21, 2011
About my life
written on 11 april 2011
My life .. round circle where past meets the future in a glance & in a short, intense emotion, hard to define. My life.. going to extremes from boring to crazy days and not ordinary experiences..from pleasure to pain, from winning to losing control.. Director & spectator at my own show, stepping outside my emotions, the magician from the other side of the mirror, the one who knows the answers but never holds the keys, the keeper of too many secrets that lost their meaning in the fog of time. The shadow playing with fire and enjoying the game, but screaming inside. Yes, my life.. and now, it's not yet the time to step into the light and look deep inside..
OM
My life .. round circle where past meets the future in a glance & in a short, intense emotion, hard to define. My life.. going to extremes from boring to crazy days and not ordinary experiences..from pleasure to pain, from winning to losing control.. Director & spectator at my own show, stepping outside my emotions, the magician from the other side of the mirror, the one who knows the answers but never holds the keys, the keeper of too many secrets that lost their meaning in the fog of time. The shadow playing with fire and enjoying the game, but screaming inside. Yes, my life.. and now, it's not yet the time to step into the light and look deep inside..
OM
The deep meaning
'Que libres somos cuando sonamos! Las barreras del tiempo, las limitaciones del espacio, las leyes de la logica, las represiones de la conciencia.. todo esto desaparece y somos dioses de nuestras proprias creaciones fugaces.Freud atribuyo una importancia capital a nuestros suenos porque lo que creamos en ellos nos partenece de forma unica.Venia a decir que entender los suenos de un hombre es entender al hombre.'
Our mind is a place unexplored, they are so many things about ourselves that we don;t know and even can't imagine that we could do. We're all born in the same way, with the same potential but very few can pass the barrier of a superficial and material word.Very few look deep in themselves, to see who they really are and where their actions lead them.Yesterday I met an old man, around his 70s, a gentle, simple and opened character.He told me about some unusual experiences in his life.When he was 19 it happened during his study to lose himself from the body and fly .. Those experiences were so alive and unexpected but they didn't last for a long period of time, they stopped like they came, in a big mystery.Was his mind in Theta brain waves?! was he day dreaming?! During that he was that conscious that he was afraid not to 'lift to high and never being able to come back.Years later , one day his daughter,just a little child then, told him that she flew around the garden, he asked her maybe it was just a dream, she was very convinced that she experienced that for real.After 2 years of his mather's death, his sister saw her one night standing in the front door.She asked her for a piece of bread and after disappeared.His sister went to close the door; that night her neighbor's house was robbed, if she had slept with the door opened, who knows what would have happened.
OM
Our mind is a place unexplored, they are so many things about ourselves that we don;t know and even can't imagine that we could do. We're all born in the same way, with the same potential but very few can pass the barrier of a superficial and material word.Very few look deep in themselves, to see who they really are and where their actions lead them.Yesterday I met an old man, around his 70s, a gentle, simple and opened character.He told me about some unusual experiences in his life.When he was 19 it happened during his study to lose himself from the body and fly .. Those experiences were so alive and unexpected but they didn't last for a long period of time, they stopped like they came, in a big mystery.Was his mind in Theta brain waves?! was he day dreaming?! During that he was that conscious that he was afraid not to 'lift to high and never being able to come back.Years later , one day his daughter,just a little child then, told him that she flew around the garden, he asked her maybe it was just a dream, she was very convinced that she experienced that for real.After 2 years of his mather's death, his sister saw her one night standing in the front door.She asked her for a piece of bread and after disappeared.His sister went to close the door; that night her neighbor's house was robbed, if she had slept with the door opened, who knows what would have happened.
OM
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Every season has its own fragrance.
~ Winter has the fresh fragrance of the frozen nature and snow flakes melting on your face, gathering in your hair.The fragrance of the white purity shining like billions of diamonds in the moonlight, the fragrance of the ice flowers on the window, of the frozen water in the laundry left outside to dry in the cold wind. You can find it deep in your memory, in those days when you were just a child and everything was like an enchanted story, with lights and shadows, songs and joy in your heart, emotions and wonders..
~ Fall has the fragrance of decadence.. of nature and life cycle approaching to an end, the fragrance of dead leaves and stagnant water, of endless & cold rains..the fragrance of grapes, quince and apples.. of melancholy..
~ Spring has the fragrance of hope, of a new life, new love.. is the perfume of the first flowers, of new dreams, new beginning, of the spirits that slept too long and now they wanna come back to life.. I think I sensed spring today in the air, when I was walking in the crowd..
~ Summer has the fragrance of the sun, and of dust in the air.It's so strong and has so many flavors, colours and sounds.. it's dazzling like a dance of leaves in the strong wind..I like it the most ..
OM.
~ Winter has the fresh fragrance of the frozen nature and snow flakes melting on your face, gathering in your hair.The fragrance of the white purity shining like billions of diamonds in the moonlight, the fragrance of the ice flowers on the window, of the frozen water in the laundry left outside to dry in the cold wind. You can find it deep in your memory, in those days when you were just a child and everything was like an enchanted story, with lights and shadows, songs and joy in your heart, emotions and wonders..
~ Fall has the fragrance of decadence.. of nature and life cycle approaching to an end, the fragrance of dead leaves and stagnant water, of endless & cold rains..the fragrance of grapes, quince and apples.. of melancholy..
~ Spring has the fragrance of hope, of a new life, new love.. is the perfume of the first flowers, of new dreams, new beginning, of the spirits that slept too long and now they wanna come back to life.. I think I sensed spring today in the air, when I was walking in the crowd..
~ Summer has the fragrance of the sun, and of dust in the air.It's so strong and has so many flavors, colours and sounds.. it's dazzling like a dance of leaves in the strong wind..I like it the most ..
OM.
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