Every season has its own fragrance.
~ Winter has the fresh fragrance of the frozen nature and snow flakes melting on your face, gathering in your hair.The fragrance of the white purity shining like billions of diamonds in the moonlight, the fragrance of the ice flowers on the window, of the frozen water in the laundry left outside to dry in the cold wind. You can find it deep in your memory, in those days when you were just a child and everything was like an enchanted story, with lights and shadows, songs and joy in your heart, emotions and wonders..
~ Fall has the fragrance of decadence.. of nature and life cycle approaching to an end, the fragrance of dead leaves and stagnant water, of endless & cold rains..the fragrance of grapes, quince and apples.. of melancholy..
~ Spring has the fragrance of hope, of a new life, new love.. is the perfume of the first flowers, of new dreams, new beginning, of the spirits that slept too long and now they wanna come back to life.. I think I sensed spring today in the air, when I was walking in the crowd..
~ Summer has the fragrance of the sun, and of dust in the air.It's so strong and has so many flavors, colours and sounds.. it's dazzling like a dance of leaves in the strong wind..I like it the most ..
OM.

This is not an ordinary experience , it's something that most of the people won't experiment in their life .. I wonder where this will take me.. oh, I know I'm being bad, and that probably I'll be punished for my sin, but I'm enjoying my game, and my sin. I'm the cat playing with the mouse .. And I just realised that love is just an illusion.. sometimes it is so easy to create an illusion! and especially women fall so easely in this trap! I've been on both sides .. so I know well ..

About me in love

I can be like a cat sometimes, if you ignore me, I'll just ignore the fact that you ignore me,if you show me the door , I'll come through the window, if you ask me not to do something I'll just do it!! If you ask me to do something there is a possibility that I won't do it .. If you want to love me I might run away from you, If I want to love you, you just can't escape.. I'm very curious and if I find you different I might consider you the object of my study hahah..I'm too independent but I need your love and support kkkk I like to "hunt" for fun and I enjoy playing with my "pray"..Who doesn't love cats and find them hard to understand, cold or perverse means that he won't like me also.. so stay away from me kkkkk

OM

My world

When I was just a baby my mother's smile, voice and smell were my entire world.. When I was just a child my street and my neighbourhood were all I knew , stories and fantasies were mixed with reality & I had my own beautiful small world.. When I was just a teenager secret loves and poems made my days, my world was the town where he lived and the touch of his hand & long conversations were everything that mattered to me..but now that I grew up nothing of these matters anymore...my town is too small for me, my country is not my home anymore, it's like I don't know where my soul is anymore.. and the entire world is not enough for me! OM

The funny story about the little flower bouquet

Tocmai a trecut 8 Martie ziua femeii, a mamei, a fetitei in crestere.. so on..so on.. zi in care fetele/femeile primesc flori de la baieti/barbati sau mai degraba fac schimb intre ele de urari de bine si martisoare :)) de felicitari sau mai comod de mesaje pe telefon si pe internet.. LoL toate astea ma fac sa zambesc.. si m-au facut sa-mi aduc aminte de povestea hazlie a unui mic buchet de zambile.. O prietena primeste de 8 martie de la iubitul ei un buchetel de zambile.. nimic neobisnuit pana aici..numai ca ..el, (trebuie avut in vedere totusi si faptul ca erau de vreo 4 ani impreuna..)o intreaba inainte de a intra in casa parintilor ei.."S. e ok daca il dau mamei tale? ca n-am avut cand sa-i cumpar... " Ea "Da..e ok" ce sa zica.. Seara mama ei trebuia sa mearga in vizita la o prietena.. "S. te superi daca dau florile de la C. lui X?" haha.. si cine stie prin ce maini a mai trecut acel buchet pana sa apuce sa se ofileasca?! Cam asa se intampla atunci cand darurile nu se mai fac din inima ci doar din convenienta si obligatie.. bucuria comerciantilor :p trebuie sa traiasca si ei.. nu?!

OM

Despre prietenie si timp

Exista un singur lucru pe lume pe care nu-l poti schimba, nu-l poti controla, nu se modifica, nu se preschimba in altceva.. si acela este timpul, nu-l simti, nu-l vezi, nu bagi de seama scurgerea lui lenta dar sigura,decat cand e prea tarziu.Este ca o fiinta nevazuta , cu propria viata, care se contopeste cu a ta, cu a fiecaruia din noi. Caci fiecare din noi are propriul univers si propriul timp. Am incercat o data sa ii privesc trecerea lenta, sa-l constientizez sa-l desfac in clipe si fragmente, sa-l pot opri.. , dar nu am reusit, mi-a alunecat printre gene ca apa printre degete.Eram in clasa a saptea in scoala generala si eram de serviciu pe scoala, atunci asa se practica, acum nu mai stiu cum e.. tocmai terminasera de construit corpul nou al scolii, o cladire eleganta si diferita de ce vazusem pana atunci.Eram singura intr-o liniste perfecta si priveam umbrele pe care lumina le varsa pe culoarele lungi si inguste ale scolii.Imi ascultam pasii care isi aveau propriul ritm, diferit de cel al gandurilor mele.Pe atunci iubeam singuratatea, o preferam superficialitatii care ma inconjura iar rutina vietii de zi cu zi ma sufoca. Am iesit afara, era o dupa-amiaza perfecta de inceput de toamna, si ceasul imi arata ca nu peste mult timp va apune soarele.Mi-am amutit gandurile si am inceput sa devin constienta la schimbarile din jurul meu.Am ramas nemiscata privind in departare pe terenul de sport incercand sa surprind procesul de trecere de la lumina la intuneric, culorile care se schimbau, cele pe care inca le puteam percepe si cele care paleau acoperite de umbra.Nuantele care se schimbau, si clipele care treceau.. Am incercat sa opresc in mod artificial timpul, ca un aparat fotografic, si in cele din urma eu am ramas cea pacalita de el. E posibil sa fi durat doua ore.. o ora, jumate de ora, dar la final totul mi s-a parut preschimbat ca pe nesimtite,ca un vis, ca si cum in cateva secunde intunericul pusese stapanire desi statusem atata timp cu simturile toate ascutite.Timpul trece la fel orice s-ar intampla, pentru oricine.. si cu toate astea il percepem diferit. Cand evenimente fericite se precipita timpul e atat de grabit, ca un accelerat pe care am vrea sa il oprim, tragand semnalul de alarma.Iar privind in urma la ce a fost, el se dilata.. in loc de o zi par 2 sau 3.. Cand plictiseala pune stapanire pe tine si numeri secundele pe ceas, el pare mai lent ca melcul si iarasi privind in urma ,neavand nici o amintire a lui, el se comprima in mod inselator.Dar ce m-a facut sa vorbesc atat de mult despre timp? ultima mea postare.. din momentul cand ne-am intalnit prima oara pana acum, cand se apropie plecarea ta.. au trecut ceva luni,, dar au trecut atat de repede ca nici n-am realizat.Parca as fi vrut sa petrecem mai multe clipe impreuna, sa avem mai multe amintiri.. dar pana la urma tot aici am fi ajuns. Si atat de repede .. se pare ^_^ dar cu siguranta ca ne vom revedea , prietena mea !

OM

exciting to finally meet you! ^_^ ^_^

Out of time

I find myself these days somehow out of time.. This time is not enough for me.. anymore..
I need extra time. from another dimention..maybe.. but a second remains still one second.. the theory of relativity is relative..If it would be possible to cut the night sleep.. and only keep the naps..to short the distances between spaces,to make teleportation come true..
*see the successful teleportation of a laser beam of light from one spot to another ..
My brain will probably explode from all the images , sounds, informations that I'm feeding it with, I find myself in a state of mind that is hungry for more and more.. for more action, for more creativity, for more beauty, for more feelings, for more knowledge.. My body will probably collapse in the end..
*see exhaustion
also see lose weight..
so much energy.. so much ..
I don't have enough time but I still have a little time..
to work, ..
to walk,
to talk,
to think,
to sing,
to read
to feed
to feel
to breathe
to watch
to learn
to dream
to paint
.............
a little time ...
for my friends for my pets for my love for my soul for new people for beauty .....
OM

photography- Holger Pooten

Some of Holger Pooten's works.. great pieces ..

Non posso piu restare qui. Momento per momento vado avanti.E il flusso del tempo che non si puo fermare, non posso farci niente. Io vado...

The end of the road

He tells me to visualize a path ,to imagine how my feet touch the ground ,the physical sensation and noise that occurs at the impact.. The walls have fallen , the space spanned ,and I can see a plain burned by the sun and the wind softly moving the dried herbs.The path is so narrow that I can barely step.. undulating like a snake. Images change with dizzying speed . Now I'm on the edge of the mountain Ceahlau, not alone, someone is fallowing me a few meters behind. I am now in the forest, tall tree trunks rise like columns to heaven .. and suddenly .. memory film breaks. I'm now surrounded by black rocks that are over my head and join and separate, and again unite ..bluish black rocks. The sky is full of  threatening clouds and there is a silence like in a tomb ..I'm getting out of the dome of rocks and there's the end of the road. In front of me there is a gap and dawn at my feet the world lies green, beautiful , endless. The sun shines gentle, reddish , in a sunset . I feel dissipating and merging with the universe. I have no words ..And all this in just a few seconds .. like in a dream .OM


 Imi spune sa vizualizez o carare, sa-mi imaginez cum talpile mele ating pamantul, senzatia fizica si zgomotul care se produce la impact.. .. Zidurile au cazut, spatiul s-a intins, vad o campie arsa de soare si vantul miscand usor ierburile uscate; cararea e atat de ingusta ca abia pot pasi ..si unduitoare ca un corp de sarpe.Imaginile se schimba cu viteza ametitoare.Acum sunt pe marginea muntelui, pe Ceahlau, si nu sunt singura, cineva ma urmeaza la cativa metri; acum sunt in padure, trunchiurile inalte de brad se inalta ca niste coloane la cer ..si brusc.. filmul amintirii se rupe.. sunt acum inconjurata de stanci negre care se unesc deasupra capului meu si iar se despart,si iar se unesc.. roci negre cu reflexe albastrui.. cerul e plin de nori amenintatori si e o liniste ca de mormant..Inaintez singura , ies de sub acea cupola de stanci, si ma aflu la sfarsitul drumului.. in fata-mi se deschide prapastia iar acolo jos , la picioarele mele se intinde lumea intreaga, verde , minunata si fara sfarsit.Razele soarelui stralucesc blande, rosietice, intr-un apus.Am senzatia de disipare si contopire cu universul.Nu am cuvinte..
Si toate astea doar in cateva secunde.. ca intr-un vis.
OM

white trash beautiful

I'm running , it's only me with the road ahead of me; the rhythmic movement of my body, the muscles that flex and relax in the most perfect machine that now has its own consciousness, Just me and the road, and the wind sculpting my cheeks , and this music exploding in my ears and spreading into my brain, a fairy scene of vibrations and neural synapses WHITE TRASH BEAUTIFUL , and everything around me disappears I'M COMIN' HOME TO YOU , my house doesn't exists , it's there where you are , it's always the road that opens up in front of me and swallows me with an unseen force, SHE WAITS FOR HIM EVERY NIGHT , SHE LEAVES THE FRONT DOOR OPEN.. I remember my first flight, a detachment from myself, one part of me climbing to the clouds, another one pulling me down subject to gravity, like in an astral duplication ; I rent the air in transparent strips that whip my body.. THERE'S SOMETHING YOU SHOULD KNOW.. MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU..and my wishper , and my silent cry I SWEAR TO GOD IT'S TRUE.. The darkness surrounds me ..millions of stars are witness to my storm, I'm calling my freedom, I'm calling you. HER LIPS STAY PAINTED RED, NAMETAG'S CROOKED. HER HEART'S BEEN GONE AWHILE WITH THE TRUCK DRIVING MAN THAT TOOK IT. SHE PRAYS FOR HIM EVERY NIGHT, SHE HOPES THAT HE CAN HEAR HER.... I wonder if you've ever heard

Alerg si sunt numai eu si drumul inaintea mea, miscarea ritmica a corpului meu, muschii care se incordeaza si relaxeaza intr-o masinarie perfecta care-si are acum propria constiinta, sunt numai eu si drumul inainte.. si vantul retezandu-mi obrajii, si muzica asta explodandu-mi in urechi, in creier , feerie de vibratii si sinapse neuronale,.. white trash beautiful.. si totul in jur dispare,.. I'm comin' home to you.., casa mea nu exista, e acolo unde esti tu, e drumul mereu care mi se deschide in fata si ma inghite cu o forta uriasa si nevazuta....She waits for him every night, she leaves the front door open....Imi amintesc primul meu zbor, desprindere de mine insami, o parte din mine sus urcand spre nori, o parte tragandu-ma jos supusa gravitatiei, ca-ntr-o dedublare; despic aerul in fasii transparente ce-mi biciuie corpul....there's something you should know..My heart belongs to you...si strigatul meu mut care incearca sa ajunga la tine.. ma intreb oare l-ai auzit vreodata?!....... My heart belongs to you....I swear to God it's true... intunericul ma cuprinde si se inchide in urma mea .. milioane de stele is martore la zbuciumul meu..imi strig libertatea, imi strig dorul, te strig pe tine..Her lips stay painted red, nametag's crooked..Her heart's been gone awhile with the truck driving man that took it..She prays for him every night, she hopes that he can hear her... ma intreb oare m-ai auzit vreodata?!

OM

38˚C

38˚C
Everything around me is about to melt and disappear in a shapeless mass.

The sidewalk is poured pitch, my feet burns and steps are crawling searching for the protection of the shadow at the edge of the road. The air appears to be dancing in the distance like in a dizzying game of wicked fairies. My blood boils. I'm recharging my batteries with the energy of the sun cz I can't stay still , if I would do that maybe I would evaporate. For the thirst that I have right now even a lake wouldn't be enough to satisfy it. I climb Rapa Galbena and when I'm about to cross the street I see behind a pillar a man around 40 with the belly generously pouring over his trousers belt. He takes a photo of me. He sees that I noticed him , I pick up the sun glasses and stare at him , as a sign that I know about it. He runs away.Strange.. I'm telling myself, I look back, no one on the street, no people, no cars, no buildings or beautiful views that could have arisen his interest. 

My steps take me to the first park in my way. I sit under the shadow of a chestnut tree, analyzing the chances to wake up with one of those spiky fruits in my head and preparing my self to enter in the universe of Chuck Palahniuk that I just bought in an antique book store.hmm.. a little out of reality..  I don't judge, cz ' A critic is a lame that teaches others how to run." and with what right I could judge it? It's simple, I like it.. or not! nothing more.Usually if a book doesn't stick on to me from the beginning , I can't finish it. But now is different.I will use my stubbornness in order to take this to an end.I will discover its meanings or maybe not ~ but at least I will be more closer to the world in which he stepped in, and maybe understand him. Maybe the images will appear different in my mind , cz everybody creates his own world inside.

I can't stay much longer in the same place.There's too many things too see and do, and the time is only one.

So I must go farther, leaving you behind..

*

Totul in jurul meu e pe cale sa se topeasca si sa dispara intr-o masa amorfa.Trotuarul e ca smoala proaspat turnata, talpile imi ard iar pasii mei se tarasc cautand umbra pe la marginea drumului.Aerul se vede dansand in zare ca intr-un joc al ielelor ametitor.Sangele imi clocoteste.Imi incarc bateriile cu energia solara caci nu pot sta pe loc, imi pare ca daca as sta m-as evapora.Setea ce-o am chiar acum imi pare ca nu s-ar satura cu un lac intreg.Urc Rapa Galbena si cand sunt pe cale sa traversez, vad dupa un stalp un barbat cam la 40 de ani, cu burta revarsandu-se generoasa peste centura pantalonilor negri. Ma fotografiaza.Vede ca l-am observat, imi ridic ochelarii de soare si il tintesc cu privirea in semn ca l-am vazut.Fuge.Ciudat.. imi spun.. ma uit inapoi.Sunt singura pe strada.Nu oameni, nu masini.Nu cladiri sau peisaje care sa-i fi starnit interesul.Picioarele ma poarta catre un parc, primul din cale.Ma asez la umbra unui castan, analizand sansele sa ma trezesc cu vreun fruct de-al lui tepos in crestetul capului.. Ma pregatesc sa patrund in universul lui Chuck Palahniuk pe care tocmai l-am achizitionat ..multumita ca am gasit intr-un anticariat 2 carti de el la un pret derizoriu.Hmm.. un pic desprins de realitate...In alta situatie, daca o carte nu se lipeste de mine din start, are slabe sanse sa o insotesc pana la ultima pagina.Nu critic ;caci asa cum spune un proverb "un critic este un schiop care-i invata pe altii sa alerge" si cu ce drept l-as critica? Totul se rezuma firesc la un fapt simplu: imi place sau nu-mi place.. nimic mai mult.Dar acum e diferit. Ma voi servi de incapatanarea care-mi sta uneori in fire si il voi parcurge pana la final.Ii voi descoperi sensurile, sau poate nici macar atat .. in schimb voi fi un pic aproape de el, voi parcurge acelasi univers pe care el l-a parcurs.Poate imaginile se vor contura altfel in mintea mea, caci fiecare ne creem propriile lumi.Dar materia prima va fi aceeasi.Dar nu pot sta prea mult intr-un loc, la fel cum nu pot sta prea mult in inertie.Sunt prea multe lucruri de facut, si multe alegeri iar timpul e unul singur.
OM

devoratorul de suflet

Orasul isi intinde ca o caracatita tentaculele uriase.. se deformeaza , se intinde si se lateste sub caldura noptii.. merg si nu ma opresc caci vreau sa-mi obosesc corpul, sa ajung extenuata la destinatie in speranta unui somn profund, fara vise.Si totusi orasul acesta pe care credeam ca-l cunosc mai bine decat liniile din palma mea stanga, imi apare diferit in seara asta.. pustiu, ceva important ii lipseste.. ceva important a pierdut.Simturile mi-au reinviat, acum sunt exacerbate.Trec pe langa o gradina cu regina noptii si parfumul ei ma termina.Cantecul greierilor ma umple de placere si visare.Dar placerea merge mana in mana cu durerea si dorul in seara asta. Ma simt de parca cineva mi-a daramat scutul protector, si acum se vede direct in sufletul meu, sunt expusa. Dar nu am puterea sa-mi revin, nu inca. Sunt ca o prada usoara intr-un ocean de rechini. In ultimele doua zile am atras mai mult ca oricand atentia si comentariile cu tenta obscena ale acelor nimicuri pe care ii intalnesti mai pretutindeni in acest oras.Ieri am raspuns cu indiferenta, urechile mele nici nu le-au receptat, azi ..mi-au facut scarba.Chiar si simplul comentariu "ce fata frumoasa.." pe care de obicei il ignor, azi ma irita. Il iau ca pe o ofensa.Prietenii ma cauta, nu le raspund.Vreau sa fiu numai eu si cu mine, sa ma reintregesc, caci nu mai sunt intreaga. O parte din mine s-a rupt si refuza sa se intoarca la mine.Rataceste si probabil inca il cauta, crezand ca indiferent unde ar fi chiar acum, il poate ajunge din urma.Dar la ce bun? ii spun eu.. daca el nu vede si nu simte la fel.. Il simt ca fiind al meu,facut exact ca pentru mine.. desi nu este.Pana acum simturile nu m-au inselat, dar totul are un inceput.Simt ca nu s-a sfarsit ci de abia incepe, fara ca eu sa mai fac nimic..si iarasi spun.. pana acum simturile nu m-au inselat, dar totul are un inceput...Simt cum oboseala, ca un medicament isi face efectul, imi face pleoapele din plumb.O primesc cu bucurie, caci fiecare noapte ce trece ma indeparteaza tot mai mult de acele cateva secunde in care, cu un simplu gest am pierdut prietenie, incredere si mandrie.In care mi-am dezgolit sufletul si nu trebuia .Mi-am dorit sa-l mai vad o data inainte de a pleca, si dorinta mi s-a implinit intr-un mod haios, (la fel cum si S. cand si-a dorit sa mai stea in Iasi si-a primit ce si-a dorit ... trenul a amanat plecarea si despartirea a fost mai lunga decat trebuia.)masina in care eram s-a intersectat cu masina lui si pentru cateva momente am putut sa-i vad chipul.
OM

per averti

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3zCfc2Maso